Rock Writers’ Guild

i know what you’re thinking….
“shes been gone awhile….she finally got on here and posted…where she been?…oh, so now she decides to post!” hehe.
ive been here. there. everywhere.
oh the places i go.
actually lately god has been testing me. my faith. me. my faith. and well, me. and ive come to conclude that i do break down. but my faith still stands. and he is still my god. and still in control.

this is something i wrote. its my heart. and its my favorite way to write….its like a stream. it flows. i write. so heres a little peek into my heart today…

worship- worthiness. respect. reverance paid to a divine being. (our God). the expression of such revereance. extravagant respect of admiration.

love- strong affection. warm attachment. a beloved person. unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for others. to cherish. to feel a passion, devotion, or tenderness for.
~love is also a choice…

WARNING: not really sure if this makes sense. my mind races and i write. just bare with me…

worship and love go hand in hand. when you love your maker you worship. you worship because you love him. its not because of anything hes done. its simply because of who he is. and its because you love him. you are devoted to him. you are attached. loyal. you cherish him. and you have a passion for him.

when love abounds worship is inevitable. when i worship its my heart bursting with unquenchable love. im giving all i have. i dont hold back. and i cant hold back. because of who he is i cannot hold it inside. i am utterly in love with him. thats right in love. every part of him i cherish. his character is amazing.

see he is more than my creator, my savior to me. he is my breath. my rock. my friend. my stability. my heartbeat. my vision. my sight. my ears. my map. my almanac. my pageturner. my author. my illustrator. my counselor. my teacher. my health. my comforter. my hand holder. my guide. my king. my daddy. my music. my sunny day. my rainy day. my caretaker. my nurturer. my provider. my liberator. my rescuer. my family. my answer. my all in all. my lover. my romancer. my romance. my hallmark card. my light in the dark. my song. my voice. my eyes. my strength. my knight in shining armor. my passion. my everything. my soul.

hes my soul. hes a part of me. he is me. i am him. the more i am like him the less i am myself and me…i am nothing. i am worthless. empty. hurt. confused. worried. without him i am NOTHING. he makes me beautiful. he makes me worthy. he fulfills me and fills me. he heals me. he gives me a clear mind. he soothes me. he fills me with love. a passion. a devotion. to him and his people. im called to love. live love. speak love. show love. send love. see love. be love.

he is love. he is in me.
i am love. because i am his.

dear lord…
i am worthless and nothing without you. i am an utter mess up without you. so lord, take all of me and empty me. spill me out. get rid of lisa and pour in you. i want you. i want to reflect you. i want to be clothed in humility and grace and love. take out mediocricy and the fear of being intimate with you. may you explode uncontrollably in me. rise up in me god. push me down so you may rise up! i want people to know you! make me a warrior….unashamed. unshakable. unquestionable…for you.
i seek your face.
i am seeking you.
i will seek you.
im after your heart.
im devoted to you.
i cherish you.
i love you.